Damned if I do, broke if I don't...

I will be working on the minecraft review later tonight and hopefully have it up for Saturday or Sunday by the latest. But I wanted to blog this to fill everyone in on what's going on and to document this for my work comp experience just in case I need a lawyer.

I went to the doctor at the Pain Clinic on the 27th. He wants to do facet joint injections. Said it would contain "pain medicine" and that it should help with the pain. If it does, then I am a good candidate to have my nerves burned. I don't want my nerves burned!

Anyway, so I called Pam at ESIS and left a message. I also called Cindy at work and told her their treatment plan.

The next day, Lisa from the pain clinic called to schedule my appointment. The thing is, she told me it is for a medial branch nerve block and that it contains steroids. I don't want steroids. The last experience with steroids was HORRIBLE. The nurse did put down that "patient requests no steroids". I also told her my concern about Cymbalta. In the literature that comes with the pills, it says (paraphrasing) "do not prescribe with patients with long term liver damage." So I told her my concern about that and she said she would ask the Dr. I told her I have liver disease and that is why I am concerned. She called back and said he wants me to take it anyway. He'll run liver function tests later. Shouldn't they run them before?

So I did get a hold of Pam at Esis and she said that I have to do what the doctor thinks is best for me or she will stop my work comp checks and close my claim for "non-compliance". So I HAVE to take cymbalta even though my PCP wouldn't even prescribe it to me, even though I have liver disease and even though it says IN THE LITERATURE FROM THE COMPANY THAT MAKES THE MEDICINE not to take it. I HAVE to get the injections even though I don't want them. Even though I want a different treatment and I don't think this is best for me. I am so doing this all under duress! I am signing the consent paper under duress and I am blogging it here. I do not want this injection!

I think taking cymbalta is a BAD idea! I would prefer the herbal route and want a more holistic approach to healing. Or to go to a chiropractor or accupunturist, or SOMETHING! I think this is a bad bad bad bad bad idea! and I am being forced/ coerced into it!

Mailbag: "Your blog died?"

I got an email from an avid reader (Hi Nikky!) that said

HEY! Your blog died? What happened? Did you fall in the toilet? Do I need to rescue you?

No, my blog did not die. No, I didn't fall into the toilet... okay, once! But I got out without help! No, I don't need rescuing.

BUT as for "what happened?" Well, I have been going through a little bit of a funk. I am worrying about whether or not I will ever make it back to work, if my back is ever going to get better and what am I going to do if I can't work as a CNA anymore. I am pretty worried about it and I am stressing over it. I'd eat chocolate but there isn't any I can eat here unless I make it myself and that would require actually getting out of my chair and moving. I don't feel like it.

Anywhoodles! So, I am working at a home-based business. Since I am about my future and whether or not my home-business will flop, I decided to attack this business thing from all angles. So, I am selling Mary Kay (shameless plug there), Mark Makeup (I'll post a link later, I am working on it), Meleleuca (which is really just for me, but HEY! if I make $, COOL!) and I am also selling items from a catalog. I am not sure what I am going to do with this, but I will figure it out eventually.

AND, I am working on getting my first book published. Hopefully it will be done by the end of March and published the firest week of April. I will keep you all posted.

Tonight I will sit down and write a review for Minecrack, I mean Minecraft. Holy cow, I am totally addicted to that game! I love it! Plus, the boys and I need to finish our other reviews too. If I can focus long enough, I will be updating!

Updating my update: AGH! I had posted a couple times in January and February through my phone. Apparently they never posted. No wonder you all thought my blog died. Sorry about that. Apparently they posted to the blog as drafts instead of just posting. I am SO SORRY! I will make sure that doesn't happen again!